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i shouldnt be upset and really have no right to. but it still hurt me. while i was telling micah no dodger was out at a club with a girl getting drunk. he wanted to make friends great. he wanted to fuck her. not my right to say no. but he asked me not to do anything with anyone else. said he wasnt ready for that. so what the fuck? he thinks im ready for him to be doing that? he acted like he wasnt ready for that and he wanted us to be together as the next ones we are with. but guess not. now hes all go fuck whoever you want. and im like well i want you. i still want the next lips that touch mine to be his.
he apologized. got all down on himself. but why? its not my right to be upset. he shouldnt have to apologize. he got ditched aparently. and hes drunk. hes not even typing right.
yeah im upset. and i feel wrong for it. he can do as he pleases. who he pleases. but the way this was done just seems wrong. he was telling me he wanted me to himself for awhile but those rules dont apply to him?
he says its harder for guys, that the hormones effect them more. ok, i know the research on this shit. but i have hormones too. doesnt mean im out getting fucked by everyone every time i feel the urge. i told him he has a brain and should use it. i use mine. and i know hes capable of using his. though with the alcohol in him thats debatable. of course he chose to drink it. i dont think we are ruled by our hormones. i dont think guys have to be led around by their dicks. i know plenty who arent. hes making it sound like he is. well then he shouldnt be telling me how he wants me and isnt ready for anyone else and isnt ready for me to be with anyone else. if hes going to follow his hard on he can at least not try and feed me lines before hand.
he apologized. got all down on himself. but why? its not my right to be upset. he shouldnt have to apologize. he got ditched aparently. and hes drunk. hes not even typing right.
yeah im upset. and i feel wrong for it. he can do as he pleases. who he pleases. but the way this was done just seems wrong. he was telling me he wanted me to himself for awhile but those rules dont apply to him?
he says its harder for guys, that the hormones effect them more. ok, i know the research on this shit. but i have hormones too. doesnt mean im out getting fucked by everyone every time i feel the urge. i told him he has a brain and should use it. i use mine. and i know hes capable of using his. though with the alcohol in him thats debatable. of course he chose to drink it. i dont think we are ruled by our hormones. i dont think guys have to be led around by their dicks. i know plenty who arent. hes making it sound like he is. well then he shouldnt be telling me how he wants me and isnt ready for anyone else and isnt ready for me to be with anyone else. if hes going to follow his hard on he can at least not try and feed me lines before hand.
