sarcastic squirrel

im missing an entire bag of clothes. nice ones, one of the bags of clothes that was for school. this is a trach bag size bag. some of that stuff was new. im pissed. i think someone stole it while i was moving in. i dont know what else could have happened to it. ill call melissa tomorrow and ask her if we left it, but im thinking it was on this end when things were being hauled up. dammit. im really pissed. i just wanted to wear one of my nice new plain shirts to school tomorrow. and they are gone.

i move tomorrow at 10am. i hope i can steal some internet for the next few days. comcast comes on wednesday. classes start monday. sunday i will be unpacking like a mad woman. im almost one packing the last of my stuff. ive left the box open to put my shampoo in. ill run a last load of laundry in the morning with my sheets an towel in it. i have my wheeled luggage bag open to put my last minute things in. im oing more laundry now. packing one last kitchen box.

tomorrow i will need to go to the store and grab a few things after i move. i need juice, paper towels, plastic wrap, garbage bags, butter, an a few tv dinners.

i cleane lyrras cage, shes ready to go. im actually prepared. look at me all grown up.

i would like to thank tim. he came over and helped me pack. he didnt have to. but he bussed all the way out here and moved all my boxes into one central location then packed a ton more. thanks to him im almost done. yay tim.

i would also like to thank jay an candy who have volunteered themselves for the moving tomorrow. not only are they helping with one of everyones lleast favorite tasks, they will also have to deal with my mother. not just my mom, but my mom under stress. oh my. they are both very sweet, helpfull people. yay jay and candy.

i would also like to thank god, my parents, and the academy. wait, no, wrong speech.

back to packing...

i should get the ok on the apartment on friday, tomorrow. to get in before school starts i need to move in saturday. moving is taken care of. but i nee help packing. anyone have time?

i know i havent been posting anything real.

been doing more apartment shit. didnt eat for 2 days and peter got mad at me. finally have all the apartment paperwork done an shoul be getting my approval either tomorrow or monday. its taken so long to get approved that my mom is just gonna hire professional movers to get me in as fast as possible so i can unpack before school starts.

got the new ani album. i like it. its not earth shatteringly good, but i like it. peter is leavin town for a week in a couple days. this makes me sad. weve never spent that much time apart. last time we spent any real time apart was when i went to sf to see dodger. things are much different now. only a month an a half later. well ill be moving an unpacking. he will be seeing family an friends. and hopefully he will miss me. im afraid he wont.

talked to will tonight on the phone. good to talk to him. hes one of my favorite people. then i met a creepy guy from online. we went to barnes an noble with a starbucks attached. he was creeeepy. and he hugged me. bad. no touchy!

now im getting ready to watch a movie. micah might be helping me pack tomorrow. im wonering when im going to see peter before he leaves. if i am.

had to change the move to next saturday. joe cant help and im not sure about micah. jay an i cant do this alone. please, is anyone free next saturday? i am not good at lifting and need people on the other end of the furniture. i will feed you!

in other news i got my mail. finally. turns out that the office knows im living here and am not on the lease. they had them stop giving me my mail. dammit. have to get out of here fast. hes gonna start giving me my mail again though. thats better than nothing.

i really need to step up the apartment search. need to be out of here as soon as i can. yep yep. no more time to waste.

got my psu id in the mail. could be uglier. not sure about this account thingy but whatever.

my mom just bitched me out over events an people i cannot control. she is mad my roomate is moving out in a week. i cannot control my roomate. this isnt my fault and i couldnt have predicte this. she sounde like she planne to stay long after i left. no i int ask if she was renting me a room then going to leave right after i moved in. i shouldnt have to ask that. she is trying to get someone to take over the lease. but she is leaving next wednesday. if she cant im fucked. i will need to rent a storage unit and couch surf for a month.

she was also ranting about dodger. saying if he really wanted me down there hed have been looking for places already and hed be prepar for me an blah blah blah. she said i shoul make sure he really wants me down there and that he will have a place when im ready to move at the end of august.

im stressed enough, i dont need this shit.

ok so this is horrible i know but i was wondering if any of you who i could potentially stay with on occassion over ngiht would comment here so i ha a list of available floor or couch space to draw from if needed. also anyone know a place i could cheaply rent a storage unit for a month thatd hold all my stuff, about a studio appartments worth.

went to powells today. got a book on pirates and a book on strippers. met up with sarah for coffee. i always like hanging out with her. always much laughing and talking and randomness. she is funny and smart, which are the things i look for in someone to sit around and talk with. so that was good. now im back home. not doing much really. i really should do some packing. going to see a room for rent on sunday and again on tuesday. i think i want the one on sunday more. its cheaper and id have my own bathroom.

i may need some help packing. if someone were to want to come over and help to pack up the kitchen and stuff sometime in like a week or so id give them like 5 bucks or something.

so i need to move by the end of june. im going to start calling places tomorrow and see how grim this is. i dont really want to live with someone i dont know (rent a room or something). but i thought id check with the lovely people on my lj friends list and see if any of you are needing a roomate or looking for a new place and would like to team up. if so let me know.

so my dad cant do my hair cuz he is going to arizona to start up his drug dealing again. he said hes sorry to disappoint me, which might have meant a lot if i didnt know he was only refering to the fact that he cant do my hair for me. he is a constant disappointment. and totally unaware of it.

talked to dodger last night. he says he doesnt think he can get an appartment by the end of june. he is focusing on finding a repacement job for september. he doesnt think he has the time or money to find an apartment. which means that i need to do something or at the end of june ill be homeless. if i can get into them there are some places that i can afford. but i have to work around my criminal record and i need to come up with the money for the security deposite and the pet deposite. ive bookmarked some places on apartment guide. its too early to check craigslist. i didnt apply to any schools up here so i guess ill be out of school next year, at least for a while. im still waiting to hear if i got accepted to the college down in sf. if not then either way im out of school. and paying off my fucking student loans.

i dont know what will happen to dodger and i. he wants me to get a place and then come down and see him all the time once he gets an apartment, while im waiting for my lease to end. or to break my lease. i dont want to be in a long distance relationship for more than a few months. and i dont want to uproot my life every few weeks, transport fred and me down there then back up again. all of this totally sucks. and im not sure that he sees me as all that important. i know im less important to him than a nice job or some level of success so he can feel like he has the ability to control everything. i cant talk to him about any of this really, he gets really upset. it seems i cant talk to him about a lot of things anymore. i used to be able to just talk to him. but now if it isnt something he can just fix then he gets all upset when i just want to talk about my life. seems he only calls me when he needs me to turn off bit torrent or to do something on his computer for him. he may talk to me afterwards but the reason he calls is to have me do something for him. and when i call he is busy and distracted or doing something or tired. as sad as it was, i think i almost prefer the dodger over the summer that at least missed me a lot and cared that i wasnt there with him.