"i could die right now...im just happy. ive never felt that before. im exactly where i want to be."

payed the deposit on my apartment yesterday. then echo picked me up and we went back and we and dodger went to the store and back. dodger and i took off after a bit and took pix of things around the neighborhood. then we went downtown. had fast food, walked around, went to powells. i got a little gnome for my new appartment. yay. went to the video store.

watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. glad he liked it. its one of my favorite movies. went and sat out on the porch. i sat in his lap curled up with a blanket over me though it was really warm and a warm breeze was pushing the leaves on the trees and everything else around and rushing over us. and we talked. and i listened to him tell me about all sorts of things. and the sun came up while we were out there and everything got bright again. it was just perfect laying there on the porch in his lap and talking. i couldnt have asked for anything better than that. and i watched him, he looked so beautiful to me. and i felt just happy. something i rarely feel. he makes me happy. and i love him more than i could ever express.

genius is touched with madness

he reminds me of james quite a bit sometimes. its odd i can love someone so much who has the ability to remind me of one of the only people i hate. he doesnt look like him but sometimes it seems like it. and when hes being weird its something in the way he talks. the things he says. but even though it reminds me of james, it reminds me of the good parts of james at least, the reasons i was with him to begin with.