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[sarcasticsquirrel]

while he was talking i felt physicallly ill. i was trying not to throw up. i have that reaction to upsetting things.

i think its good that i can cry. it keeps me from doing other damaging things as much.

i havent hurt myself. im not saying i wont, but i havent. im trying to get myself together. falling apart right now wont help anything. it will only make things worse. i just have this pain inside me.

maybe i should be on meds.

i kinda want to go to the hospital. but they dont take me unless i do something drastic. and i dont think inflicting injury in a serious manner on myself in order to get locke in a ward is a good idea at this time.

an i have packing to do. an moving. and unpacking. an school.

i still need people for saturday to help me move. please. i need help.

i need help in a lot of ways. but the move i guess is most important.

i nee help emotionally, mentally, i need to be held, an talked to. but ill settle for people who can lift furniture or boxes.