so yesterday i got up and was home for a bit then i get ready and head out in my costume. it was cold and i didnt see anyone around dressed up. felt embarrassed. saw tim and he liked my costume. as did a random guy. and i met a model at the streetcar stop and we talked. she was nice. i went to class. gave out candy. took 3 quizzes. im ready for the first exam. yay! im speeding up. its gonna be alright. one of the ta's told me my costume was hot.
went to therapy for a minute to show off. then i grabbed some food and headed for the art institute. i like going into art schools. the walls are covered with fun things and i think it must be so fun to go to one of those places. i talked to the human resource lady. then i went to the class. 3 hours of doing poses, all standing, all having to be exagerated and animated looking. they were doing some really neat drawings but my back was fucked afterwards. i went back out in the freezing cold and wlaked home. then peter came over. we went for food then back to my place. got ready and dan arrived too. he looked cool. peter was adorable! and he liked my costume too. i tried on his ears and nose this morning. it was cute. anyways so we all three took my pumpkins downstairs for a send off of being outside for people to see. then we went to the club. i didnt have as much fun as last year. the venue was not as good as the crystal and the mood was not as fun. peter hated it. dan seemed to do alright. he danced which was cool. peter danced with me. that was my favorite part. i loved it. i danced by myself a bit. i love dancing. i saw charles. that was cool. need to hang out with him soon. also saw brent and ilia. that was good. i miss them. saw stephanie. and some other people. saw owen. and aurora. and bill. i felt at home and out of place at the same time. people kept telling me id been a stranger.
i felt like i didnt know who i was anymore. ive changed how i look, how i dress, im going to a new school and hanging out with different people. i think i felt like i could have a normal stable life if i did this. but im denying part of who i am. strangely im not sure who i am anymore. or what i want. well i know what i want in the long term but not in the short term. and im not sure that what im doing will make me happy.
today i went to class. then i went and got nice gloves from macys. they were on sale. i was happy about it. yay warm hands. then i went to office depot and got more blank dvds and a program for making houses on my computer so i could play with it. and i asked for a usb cord to connect my camera to the computer. i showed my camera and the port to them. i get home and they gave me the wrong size. after i showed them right where i needed to plug the fucking thing in! grr. have to go back tomorrow and exchange it and then go drop off the employment paperwork at the art institute.
went to therapy for a minute to show off. then i grabbed some food and headed for the art institute. i like going into art schools. the walls are covered with fun things and i think it must be so fun to go to one of those places. i talked to the human resource lady. then i went to the class. 3 hours of doing poses, all standing, all having to be exagerated and animated looking. they were doing some really neat drawings but my back was fucked afterwards. i went back out in the freezing cold and wlaked home. then peter came over. we went for food then back to my place. got ready and dan arrived too. he looked cool. peter was adorable! and he liked my costume too. i tried on his ears and nose this morning. it was cute. anyways so we all three took my pumpkins downstairs for a send off of being outside for people to see. then we went to the club. i didnt have as much fun as last year. the venue was not as good as the crystal and the mood was not as fun. peter hated it. dan seemed to do alright. he danced which was cool. peter danced with me. that was my favorite part. i loved it. i danced by myself a bit. i love dancing. i saw charles. that was cool. need to hang out with him soon. also saw brent and ilia. that was good. i miss them. saw stephanie. and some other people. saw owen. and aurora. and bill. i felt at home and out of place at the same time. people kept telling me id been a stranger.
i felt like i didnt know who i was anymore. ive changed how i look, how i dress, im going to a new school and hanging out with different people. i think i felt like i could have a normal stable life if i did this. but im denying part of who i am. strangely im not sure who i am anymore. or what i want. well i know what i want in the long term but not in the short term. and im not sure that what im doing will make me happy.
today i went to class. then i went and got nice gloves from macys. they were on sale. i was happy about it. yay warm hands. then i went to office depot and got more blank dvds and a program for making houses on my computer so i could play with it. and i asked for a usb cord to connect my camera to the computer. i showed my camera and the port to them. i get home and they gave me the wrong size. after i showed them right where i needed to plug the fucking thing in! grr. have to go back tomorrow and exchange it and then go drop off the employment paperwork at the art institute.