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emotional hemophelia...
Jul. 6th, 2005 04:49 pmi was reading a book on borderline personality disorder called "i hate you, dont leave me". a lot of times i think this stuff is crap, but a lot of it i understand and relate to. it helps me somehow. this book is a little out of date in some ways, written in 89. but anyways these are some quotes that somehow caught my attention, the first one, and the second to last one, especially.
"a borderline suffers a kind of emotional hemophelia; he lacks the clotting mechanism needed to moderate his spurts of feeling. stimulate a passion, and the borderline emotionally bleeds to death."
"in the relentless search for a structured role in life, the borderline is typically attracted to-and attracts to her-others with complimentary personality disorders."
"to compensate, he caroms back and forth from clinging dependancy to angry manipulation, from outpourings of graditude to irrational hate. he fears abandonment, so he clings; he fears engulfment, so he pushes away. he craves intimacy and is terrified of it at the same time. he winds up repelling those whom he most wants to connect.
"afflicted with self-loathing, the borderline distrusts others expressions of caring."
"the borderline cannot seem to gain enough independance to be dependant in healthy, rather than desperate, ways."
"borderlines lack a constant, core sense of identity, just as they lack a constant core conceptualization of others. the borderline does not accept her own intelligence, attractiveness, or sensitivity as constant traits, but rather as comparitive qualities to be continually re-earned and judged against others."
"a borderline suffers a kind of emotional hemophelia; he lacks the clotting mechanism needed to moderate his spurts of feeling. stimulate a passion, and the borderline emotionally bleeds to death."
"in the relentless search for a structured role in life, the borderline is typically attracted to-and attracts to her-others with complimentary personality disorders."
"to compensate, he caroms back and forth from clinging dependancy to angry manipulation, from outpourings of graditude to irrational hate. he fears abandonment, so he clings; he fears engulfment, so he pushes away. he craves intimacy and is terrified of it at the same time. he winds up repelling those whom he most wants to connect.
"afflicted with self-loathing, the borderline distrusts others expressions of caring."
"the borderline cannot seem to gain enough independance to be dependant in healthy, rather than desperate, ways."
"borderlines lack a constant, core sense of identity, just as they lack a constant core conceptualization of others. the borderline does not accept her own intelligence, attractiveness, or sensitivity as constant traits, but rather as comparitive qualities to be continually re-earned and judged against others."
