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was lazy today. stayed home. went to the store. went to starbucks. saw the bearista bear for haloween this year at the starbucks. i must have it. someone should get it for me. its my bday...soon. its a bear dressed as a cat with a pumkin trick or treat bag. its super cute. yay.
went to a shoot with leanne tonight at an arcade. was fun. talked to the guys who worked there. stood around lookin at leanne nekkid. yay naked! teehee. i was being annoying. and i felt ugly. my hair was greasy and my clothes sucked and i felt like shit. i dont like feeling that way. im insecure enough when im not greasy and frumpy looking. and when i dont have pretty naked girls to compare myself to. (the reason i havent done threesomes since the one i tried with james and audra). not that i didnt enjoy seeing her nekkid. and saying silly things to make her laugh. which was far too easy. shes fun. one of the only girls who doesnt annoy the shit outta me. i fucking hate most women.
my tummy and head hurt tonight. and earlier i felt dizzy and out of it.
went to a shoot with leanne tonight at an arcade. was fun. talked to the guys who worked there. stood around lookin at leanne nekkid. yay naked! teehee. i was being annoying. and i felt ugly. my hair was greasy and my clothes sucked and i felt like shit. i dont like feeling that way. im insecure enough when im not greasy and frumpy looking. and when i dont have pretty naked girls to compare myself to. (the reason i havent done threesomes since the one i tried with james and audra). not that i didnt enjoy seeing her nekkid. and saying silly things to make her laugh. which was far too easy. shes fun. one of the only girls who doesnt annoy the shit outta me. i fucking hate most women.
my tummy and head hurt tonight. and earlier i felt dizzy and out of it.
