today lucas and i finished my old appartment. pictures will be up soon. it was wierd turning in my keys and saying goodbye to the place and seeing it totally empty and turning off all the lights and leaving it. we went to red robin to celebrate.
now to talk about sunday...
did appartment stuff. then i met tom at powells before he went back down to eugene. i dont like his purple hair. sorry tom. we got "coffee" and coffee cake and tlaked a bit. then we went to sparticus. then i took him to the bus station. the whole thing seemed wierd to me. and i got the feeling that he didnt really care abot my company or whether he saw me. i dunno, just the vibe i was getting was wierd.
then i found out jess wasnt back yet. so i went to my appartment downtown to wait. called thomas and talked for a while. he said hed picke me up later for club. then i went over to sarah's appartment across the hall. i enjoyed hanging out with her. then i was off to jess's place. got ready. he showed up and we hung out for a bit. i was wondering where thomas was so i called and his lame ass was asleep (as was the rest of him). so he came over and we left. went to the club. hung out, danced. was having a good time. even though i kept stepping on my red velvet dress. danced wiht dallas. talked to thomas and brenton and owen and vinka molested me. then for some reason i started to feel wierd. i stopped dancing. i left the room to try and get my shit together. but i felt too wierd. i think the flashing lights and the way the music was set me off for some reason. well i came back in and thomas noticed i was a bit off so he took me outside. and i wasnt talking and he and brenton tried to snap me out of it. and i tried to take off across burnside. and they grabbed me and my dress ripped on the side. and they restrained me and carried me back in kicking around and stuff. and the people at the front wouldnt let them carry me upstairs. so they tried to make me chill in the lobby. thomas took me for a walk. and i talked to him. and when we returned they told me i couldnt go back in, it was a liability. thomas went up to get my things. i took off walking down burnside. i kept saying "im not crazy. fuck them. im not crazy. im not. im not." some big trucks scared me. and some people tried to talk to me. and cabs kept going back and forth by me waiting for me to get in. and i got scared and put my hands over my ears and said too loud, too loud over and over. i went back to the club. i was scared and i didnt have my stuff. and i waited but thomas was no where. and the guys inside saw me and got him and he came down. and he took me to jess's place. i wanted to go home. i called lucas like 6 times but he never picked up. that scared me more. i just wanted to go home. but i slept at jess's.
i skipped math. and i hung out with jess when he returned form class. that was nice. then i went to womens studies. she didnt have our midterms graded cuz shed set fire to her appartment. good thing our midterms werent damaged. but wow. hung out. then went to wendys and to get doughnuts. mmm...then did more appartment stuff with lucas and watched shrek 2 and cuddled. that was nice.
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