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Jun. 4th, 2005
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Jun. 4th, 2005 02:17 pmmoving day.
i went to bed late. dodger woke me when he came to bed a lot later. we talked for a while. i was talking about my ex's. and i had this strong image of tom in my head from last summer when some shit went down and he was trying to kiss me and squeezing my hand 3 times (which meant i love you) and calling me shatz. it was a weird sensation.
was woken up at 1030. my mom. then since then ive been getting and making a bunch of phone calls, getting attitude, people who are running behind, problems i cant solve, and people yelling at me. nothing is as together as i thought itd be. and the manager mgiht have all the work done on the appartment by the time i get there. *sigh*
dodger held me for a minute but he was half asleep. i really have been stressing out. and i know i took it out on him and shouldnt have but things are so frustrating. and he was holding me and i told him i loved him and he said he loved me too and for some reason my mouth came open wide and i screamed silently and inside my head it was full volume screaming "then why are you leaving me?" and tears welled up in my eyes. he didnt see any of this and i got up and he went back into total sleep.
where is my fucking brother? hes more than a little late.
i went to bed late. dodger woke me when he came to bed a lot later. we talked for a while. i was talking about my ex's. and i had this strong image of tom in my head from last summer when some shit went down and he was trying to kiss me and squeezing my hand 3 times (which meant i love you) and calling me shatz. it was a weird sensation.
was woken up at 1030. my mom. then since then ive been getting and making a bunch of phone calls, getting attitude, people who are running behind, problems i cant solve, and people yelling at me. nothing is as together as i thought itd be. and the manager mgiht have all the work done on the appartment by the time i get there. *sigh*
dodger held me for a minute but he was half asleep. i really have been stressing out. and i know i took it out on him and shouldnt have but things are so frustrating. and he was holding me and i told him i loved him and he said he loved me too and for some reason my mouth came open wide and i screamed silently and inside my head it was full volume screaming "then why are you leaving me?" and tears welled up in my eyes. he didnt see any of this and i got up and he went back into total sleep.
where is my fucking brother? hes more than a little late.
