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i am selling my guitar. its acoustic, kinda short. needs tuning but the strings should be fine. its pretty and in good condition. not sure what im charging, thought id see what people were willing to offer. anyone interested? comes with slightly broken case.

i will also be selling off a lot of other random things. anyone thats interested let me know.

also, if anyone wants to help me go through my stuff and repack it, discard, organize thatd be really helpfull. i also need to unpack to an extent.

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well plans are formulating. i feel a bit better. i am going to drop my math class. i am going to make money as much as i can. i am going to search for appartments in sf. i am going to help dodger however is needed. i am going to do what is needed to transfer to a university in sf. it is looking like i wont be able to start back to school till spring but thats ok. that will give me time to find a job when i get down there. dodgers goal is 5k. which is more than is needed for the move, would give enough to fix his teeth too. my debts will have to be dealt with later. id have to transfer my disability, find a therapist. there will be a lot to be done. but i have no doubts, i have no hesitations. this is right and it is the best thing for everyone. i love him. ill do whatever needs to be done to be with him. but we are going about it responsibly and realistically which is more my style than running down there, as much as i want to do that. this will take longer, but be less stressful in the long run.

so i feel better. i guess its like instead of feeling helpless i feel like things are moving toward something better and that makes the here and now more bareable.

i am still going through self destructive urges. but they are going more towards going and getting into dangerous situations and running out in traffic and that sort of thing rather than cutting. this is not an improvement. its worse really. but it needs to happen, there needs to be a climax before i can start to get beter. i know this. i just dont know how bad itll be. i love dodger so i need to make it is safe and not bad as i can. but i dont know how much i can do about that.

stolen from lokidecat

1) What stickers do you have on your car?
i have a car now? shit, i need to learn to drive!

2) How/where did you meet your last bf/gf?
when my friend picked him up for the goth club. thanks brent. i never saw your little bow and arrow set, didnt see a damn thing comming.

3) What do you hear right now?
the fan in my computer.

4) If you could have a drink of anything right this second, what would it be?
spakling cider? carmel apple cider...mmm

5) Does anything hurt on your body right now?
my back

6)How much wood could a woodchuck chuck if a woodchuck could chuck wood?
a wood chuck would chuck any wood it could chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood

7) What's your job position called?
unemployed

8) What size ring do you wear?
i think a 7, maybe a 6.

9) Do you own a picture phone?
picture and video. dont ask why.

10) What's your bf/gf's birthday?
um, 4/19?

11) What's your Mom's favorite band/musician?
the beatles, but she also really likes eric clapton

12) What's your Dad's favorite band/musician?
i dont know my dad well enough to answer this and i dont relaly care.

13) What was your highschool's mascot?
at lincoln it was the cardinal and at westview it was the wolves. so my second high school could eat my first one whole. haha.

14) What's your favorite bottled water?
free?

15) What's the next concert/show you're going to and when?
dont know, id like to see ani when shes in town.

16) What were you doing at 9 pm last night?
talking to dodger online like i always am.

17) What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
caramel apple cider.

18) Do you exercise as much as you should?
not at all.

19) Did you attend your High School prom?
yes. it really sucked.

20) Would you give your bf/gf a second chance if they cheated on you?
yes.

watch oout for loki. hahaha

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looks like ill be doing some modeling, nekkid stuff. having an interview at some guys place tomorrow at 4. also just had another person email me that they want to interview me. dodger is worried about my safety. im not worried. the world is not as dark as he makes it out to be. no one has ever hurt me before.