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while he was talking i felt physicallly ill. i was trying not to throw up. i have that reaction to upsetting things.

i think its good that i can cry. it keeps me from doing other damaging things as much.

i havent hurt myself. im not saying i wont, but i havent. im trying to get myself together. falling apart right now wont help anything. it will only make things worse. i just have this pain inside me.

maybe i should be on meds.

i kinda want to go to the hospital. but they dont take me unless i do something drastic. and i dont think inflicting injury in a serious manner on myself in order to get locke in a ward is a good idea at this time.

an i have packing to do. an moving. and unpacking. an school.

i still need people for saturday to help me move. please. i need help.

i need help in a lot of ways. but the move i guess is most important.

i nee help emotionally, mentally, i need to be held, an talked to. but ill settle for people who can lift furniture or boxes.

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"everyone dies all by themselves."

"if you really believe that who are you out here looking for?"

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everything is going to be alright.

peter called me this morning and said he wanted me back. an he came over an cuddled with me until he had to go to his chiropractor appointment.

i didnt really expect this, especially not so soon. but i feel a lot better.

sorry its just funny

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i think it would be fun to have a book made on lulu.com. i was thinking of putting together some poetry an maybe some pictures to go with the poems. i coul afford to make a few copies but not many. but theni can have it up for sale on the website. so thats cool.

so what do you guys think? and would any of you be interestedin getting one if i were to do this? if anyone is i coul order it for you at cost instead of having you pay the higher price of buying it off the site.