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[sarcasticsquirrel]

ive been really depressed lately. its like ive been drowning in this thick sea of something that keeps me held down. i feel like ive given up. like im trapped inside myself, fighting whatever it is that i cant break through to motivate myself. i want to hurt myself often. but i dont. honestly i cant afford to. i get headaches all the time. they make everything hurt. i never write anymore. finishing school feels further and further away. i dont think ill ever have kids. i dont think ill ever finish college. or live in a house. i dont think ill have any of the things i want for myself. sometimes i wish i were dead. sometimes i just wish i were someone else.

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Faith

[senorwarrenv.livejournal.com]

I have faith in you that you will finish @PCC!

splat

[bloomerwedgies.livejournal.com]

I've been feeling the same way...I've been trying to get more exercise to try and combat the demons. It really does help, painful as it is. I *hate* working out, but it really gets the feel-good chemicals going in my brain to battle the ones that make me want to jump off the top level of a parking structure...