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[sarcasticsquirrel]

no one ever really talks to me about anything. thats because i have nothing to say. i dont have enough knowledge to discuss anything. people tend to fin me really interesting when they first meet me. ive live life. i have stories, i can talk about myself, my issues an the things that have happened to me. but once you get beyond that its easy to fin there isnt much else there. i know a lot about some tv shows, movies, that sort of thing. but i dont know much else. bottom line: im boring. i dont have much to offer. im a sweet girl. and i am intelligent, but im wasting it. im good with clothes. i can dress up an i can match outfits together. i can shop. so basically im shallow and materialistic. greeeeeaaaaat. i ont know who im kidding with this psych degree. i had a more realistic idea thinking i could do wardrobe for tv shows. i know how to make outfit changes for character development and change of mood. i can show things through the way someone is dressed. but all of this sounds stupid and void of any worth to me. peter and i talk online. but in person if we arent eating or fucking he is almost always on his computer or reading the paper. i think i bore him. i dont think he has anything to say to me.

i put some ads on craigslist for modeling tonight. i was a fool to think i could get a regular job. i need to get back to what im goodd at. dressing up an taking my clothes off. im one step away from being a whore. this is what im good at. my body is what i have to offer, always has been.

Comments

[misshepeshu.livejournal.com]

There's a WHOLE BUNCH on your journal I want to comment on, like damn, but I haven't had the time. But I think you're drastically under-rating yourself, which is setting up a self-fulfilling prophecy.

More later. I need to go to bed now.

[opus-bachelorum.livejournal.com]

It's not what are you like, but what you like that's important.

It's true.
Everyone has opening lines, initial stories to show people who they are, but no one's supply is limitless, and if it is they're just making shit up as they go.

I know it's silly for the pot to be calling the kettle black here, but don't be so hard on yourself. You have a huge untapped resource of potential in you. And despite what I may think about College as an actual learning institution, I can't knock on it's ability to push people into finding out what and who they are...if they're willing to work for it.

As for the modelling, you're beautiful. And you don't need to take your clothes off to prove that...but if you want to, that's not really any of my business.

And finally, as far as us getting together to hang out, I say and say and say and say, but never do. That's my fault and basically my fault alone and has nothing to do with how I see you and everything to do with my life's choices and how I see myself. I'll find some time, I promise, if I have to drag myself out kicking and screaming.

[stainedorchid.livejournal.com]

Sweetheart you are not boring, and you are most definately NOT one step up from being a whore. Having a good body and knowing how to pose properly to make art is NOT a bad thing. We have been very busy but miss you and would love to spend time with you. I rarely check my LJ, I'm usually checking MySpace instead but you need to know that you are worth more that you think and I enjoy taking to you and spending time with YOU and your brain, thoughts and so on, you have a nice body and know how to dress it, that is not why I like you.

[timthepenguin.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure if I've said this before, but reading books can help, both fiction and non-fiction. That way, if a topic comes up that you've read about, or people start talking about a book everyone else has read, then you have something to say. This might sound dumb, but history books are sometimes the best. Not only do they have stories in them, but they're stories that are in some way relevant to today.