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peter always has things to talk about. he thinks he bores me but he doesnt. i love that he knows about all these things cuz then i get to hear about them.
sometimes we are talking at night in bed and he falls asleep. and it makes me kinda sad sometimes cuz then i cant talk to him anymore. i like that im still so infatuated with him. i like that its still cute that he hogs the bed and i can open my eyes when hes sleeping and watch him and smile. i like to walk around with him while he talks about random things. and i love that he gets excited about things. i dont generally get excited about things very often. or i dont show it. i like to watch his eyes light up when ideas make him all sparky inside.
i tell him hes an asshole. and he is. but hes also really sweet and caring. he wanted to be my white knight when he met me. then he seemed disappointed by the reality that he couldnt. but i think that he is, in a more reality based way. he just doesnt see it because in the real world the white knight doesnt swoop in and make it all better and rescue the girl completely. he can come in and take her away on his horse but then he has to tackle all the thigns that put her in the situation of needing to be rescued. peter isnt fixing me. and im glad. but hes making it easier for me to fix myself. and making me want to.
sometimes we are talking at night in bed and he falls asleep. and it makes me kinda sad sometimes cuz then i cant talk to him anymore. i like that im still so infatuated with him. i like that its still cute that he hogs the bed and i can open my eyes when hes sleeping and watch him and smile. i like to walk around with him while he talks about random things. and i love that he gets excited about things. i dont generally get excited about things very often. or i dont show it. i like to watch his eyes light up when ideas make him all sparky inside.
i tell him hes an asshole. and he is. but hes also really sweet and caring. he wanted to be my white knight when he met me. then he seemed disappointed by the reality that he couldnt. but i think that he is, in a more reality based way. he just doesnt see it because in the real world the white knight doesnt swoop in and make it all better and rescue the girl completely. he can come in and take her away on his horse but then he has to tackle all the thigns that put her in the situation of needing to be rescued. peter isnt fixing me. and im glad. but hes making it easier for me to fix myself. and making me want to.
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Date: 2006-11-19 12:57 pm (UTC)From:sounds like me. :D
but hes making it easier for me to fix myself. and making me want to.
yay!